Sunday, July 6, 2025

Lost Again!

 Representative Image. "Scream"!

We all want to win at all times but normally life  does not work like that. It will make us bite the dust from time to time. It is not important that you lost; rather how you pick yourself back up, dust your clothes and get back on the program; that is what matters.
 
We all have our own individual coping mechanisms to deal with a disappointment. Some people cry when no one is watching; some go for a long walk; other's talk to a friend; have a coffee, read, sketch...... many ways , all very valid! I have tried most of them and they really work. We fail an exam; we prepare and try again. We suck at baseball;we quit and try ping pong! Some losses are easily replaceable some are not.
 
Even in the case of  some one close passing. A systematic approach to grieving exists that culminates in a final good bye. There is a finality to the whole thing and human  survival instinct ensures that life goes on. The loss slowly becomes a dull ache over the years and then a sad memory.
 
What really happens when there is no physical death but you lose an individual close to your heart? This is a real hard one! There is a very steep recovery curve here. Depending upon the individual circumstances it could take a lifetime to come to terms with it. In all cases it is a lengthy  process even when we deploy every available coping strategy. I have heard it can be done! My own experience differs though. Maybe I am weak.
 
Can you lose the same person twice in a life time?  Yeah; I know; some of the God's chosen do have all the luck! No body is dead but everyone wishes they were not even born ever! The stench of loss becomes so pronounced that you can smell it oozing out of every cell in your body. It permeates everything you see, hear or touch. It places you on the precipice of a deep bottomless gorge. Taking the last step into the void feels like relief!

Can there be any recovery from such a colossal loss? One will have to live with this festering malignancy to the end of their days and just pray- pray for an early release from this jail called  the human world.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Tuesday, July 1, 2025

खंजर !

Representative image , "female figurine holding a knife"
 
 कभी इज़हार कर, कभी इकरार कर,
बेवफ़ा बन के कभी बेकरार कर ;
फिर एक खंजर उतार दिया।

बेवक़्त मुलाकात को कभी आ कर,
कभी दिन भर का इंतजार ज़ाया कर;
फिर एक खंजर उतार दिया।

कभी यूं ही रूठ रुसा कर,
 किसी भी तरह कभी न मान कर;
फिर एक खंजर उतार दिया।

कभी बेपनाह प्यार से संवार कर,
कभी हर उम्मीद को दुत्कार कर;
फिर एक खंजर उतार दिया 

कभी जिस्म बनकर, कभी जान बनकर,
कभी बेबस का ख्याल बनकर;
फिर एक खंजर उतार दिया।

 दोस्त बनकर कभी हमसफर बनकर,
मुंह फेरकर कभी अजनबी बनकर;
फिर एक खंजर उतार दिया।

 नाहक तोहमतों के कभी बोल बोल कर,
सामने आकर भी कभी चुप रहकर;
फिर एक खंजर उतार दिया।

उम्र भर का कभी सपना दिखा कर,
दो कदम पर ही कभी हाथ छुड़ा कर;
फिर एक खंजर उतार दिया।




 





 


Saturday, June 28, 2025

Letter to God!

 

'Creation of man' Fresco in  Sistine Chapel by Michelangelo
 

Dear God,

Just so you know, I am angry with you and you will get an earful today! I do not know how are you running this whole  universe thing? What have I done to you that you have put a target on my back? No, I do not claim to be a paragon of virtue but listen there is nothing serious against me and don't you think  decades of constant agony is sufficient penalty for the crime of liking a person? Just one person!

Firstly explain to me why do you place me in this person's path again and again? Why ? To torment and rob me of vitality?  They have no use of me and you know it. They will never choose me, even if I was the last person left on earth. If I live in the neighbourhood they will sell their home and move out. They will fail a course just to avoid being in the same class. How many times have you tried this same trick? At every stage of life.... yeah, that's right! No, the person did not pick me as a boy friend nor a life partner. Not even as a friend. Told me to go away and never even come say hello!  You know  I do not fit the bill. Short; short of money and short of influence is not exactly the sauce for success. Why do you keep joking with me?

 All you used me for was to soak up the toxicity left over after the boyfriend project ended by putting me back in the middle of it! I took the job because I really, really liked the person. I did a good job.  Did I not ? Then why did you have to  kick me out of the person's life after heaping insults on me by the roadside. No explanation , no chance , no fairness! Just Absolute cruel and insensitive, selfish disregard for me ! That's the thanks I received for being respectful, honourable,  friendly, nurturing, caring and a loving person. I gave everything I had to this; everything !  God ! You of all people should know I was totally sincere. Did I deserve  this catastrophic punishment ? Accusatory words turned the knife in my back and it still hurts like hell!

I resigned to my fate! As if I had a choice! My entire life changed to a diminished , circumscribed existence. I became a shell of what I was and have missed all of my achievement markers because of absymally poor motivation. 

I go about my mundane life one day at a time. I have  barely learned to live with my grief after struggling with it for several decades.

God! You kept me out of the loop  during all the prime milestones of this individual's life. That's most of my adult life , middle age and now my senior years. Things like Marriage, parenthood , buying a home....  were off limits for me. Decades when I yearned for a scrap of welfare  information ; you did not provide any. Nothing. Not one little tiny bit. I just wanted to keep my promise of always caring! Keeping a promise - is that a crime too? I am  an old man now ; God - I am  not that young any more! Why did you  send all of those details now? Why are you pushing me on to a colliding trajectory again? If this is a test.... I fail!

I had put huge distance in between to avoid such a thing ; but with one stroke you have nullified everything. Time and space have become quite meaningless. I am back in time reliving the tragedy of my life and mourning my life altering  loss! 

What is it that you want God? What do you want of me this time? I have nothing left to give. This person already has everything I could. Took everything I had and ran off ! All of my dreams, my hopes, my plans and my love.... gone! I was replaced in this person's life too. A long time ago!

Does anyone even want me in the first place? Much less giving access to themselves, they do not even want me to have access to their picture!  Dear God you saw that! Didn't you?  what in the God's name do you not understand here? I will never mean anything. Why could you not keep me unaware still? I can not fathom what your plan is !

Instead of cruel words;  complete silence is turning the knife in this time round! It hurts worse than words could .

God; are you even listening? Do you ever listen?


 

 

Saturday, June 21, 2025

कितने आदमी थे ?


                                                 "kitne admi the?" Shot from movie ,"Sholay"
 
आठ अरब इंसान है इस दुनिया में,
मै अभी पहले को ही दोस्त नहीं बना पाया।
 
ओ खुदा मेरे और कितने इम्तिहान बाकी हैं,
पहला पर्चा ही मुझ से पास नहीं हो पाया!
 
कुछ शर्म आ रही है अपनी कारीगरी पे?
 कदर बदकिस्मत शख्स कैसे बनाया?
 
ऐसे क्यों देखते हो हैरान हो के मुझे?
खोया ही खोया है, जिंदगी से कुछ नहीं पाया।
 
सारी हसीन रंगीनियां नज़र आती हैं मुझे,
वो जो भाया तो फिर कुछ नहीं भाया!
 
ये खेला तुम्हारे लिए है ही नहीं मेरे भाई,
अंत तक पता न चलेगा; कौन अपना, कौन पराया!
 
गुमान होता यूं था  हर पल साथ चल रहा है वो,
ज़रा उधर हाथ बढ़ाया तो निकला मेरा साया
 
जिंदगी जब तलक मौका देगी इंतजार कर लूंगा।
घबराता हूं क्या हो गर उस दिन भी वो न आया! 


Monday, June 16, 2025

हम क्या चाहते हैं ?


 

Couple in front of Gustav Klimt's iconic "Der Kuss". 

Belvedere Museum, Vienna

मेरे बालों में उंगली फिराने के बहाने 

अचानक ज़रा सा खींच दो,मजाक में 

मै ये चाहता हूं! 

 

तुम बालों में ब्रश करो सोने से पहले

और मैं रोज़ एकटक ,मंत्रमुध देखूं ।

 मै ये चाहता हूं!

 

"काफी कड़वी लगती है? यू आर ए किड"

कह के खूब कहकहे लगाओ मुझ पर  

मै ये चाहता हूं!

 

तुम कालेज के बारे में सवाल पूछो,

जो अभी हुए ही नहीं उन बच्चों के। 

मै ये चाहता हूं!

 

तुमको नहीं आता बोल चाइनीज तुम ऑर्डर करो

घर पर किसी दिन दोनों के लिए मैगी से काम चलाओ

 मै ये चाहता हूं!

 

भीगी भीगी आंखों से अपने राज़ मुझे बताओ

मेरे थोडे शरारती जोक पर आँखें भींच हंसो

मै ये चाहता हूं!

 

हम फिल्म देखने जाएं और टिकट ही न मिले। 

 मेरा कुछ सामान तुम्हारी कपड़ों की अलमारी में मिले 

मै ये चाहता हूं!

 

सुस्त ट्रेन की ऊपरी बर्थ पर बतियाएं हम

तिब्बती मार्केट से मेरा स्वेटर खरीदो तुम

मै ये चाहता हूं!

 

 लालची हूं  इसलिए सारी दुनिय़ा के बदले , 

 मुनाफे का सौदा - तुम्हे मांगता हूं!

मै ये चाहता हूं! 

 

 तुम  फिर भी चाहती हो आज़ादी!

हां, मुझसे चाहिए हां, अभी चाहिए !


रहने दो ,आज से मै कुछ नही  चाहता !





Saturday, June 14, 2025

Seat 11 !

 

'Thorn chair' by Michele Oka Doner

USA, c. 1980
cast and patinated bronze
 .91 × 53 × 51 cm
 
Few years ago - alright make it more than a few years ago; when I started travelling by air I used to love sitting on a window seat. A hold over from all those bus trips of my childhood travelling  to the achingly beautiful Kashmir valley. Window seat would allow you to enjoy the view  for those 8/9 hours you had to be sitting on those hard bench like seats. Things changed over time and I could afford better seats and coaches that  ran movies the entire time. Passengers loved that idea but I was never a fan of it. Bus operators would draw all the  window curtains to get  better screen visibility. I would still try to get a window seat and peeked outside through the slits in the curtain.
 
Once in the air  you can not see much ; just endless blue skies and few clouds. To me it is still fascinating, almost a liberating view! For a very long time I continued to book a window seat. I would always resent if that was not available; which happened once in a while. What bad luck I thought !
 
Time is relentless. It imprints itself on everything and everyone. So one fine day as I was flying from Frankfurt to home I realized I have grown up and not that young boy of those bus rides any more ! I was in the window seat as usual in a three seat configuration. Dinner was over; wine was done and  every passenger was trying to catch a wink. I held on for some time but then I had to go. It would have been quite normal but I had gone just before dinner, not too long ago. I had to repeat this later again. So the process involves waking up the middle seat and the aisle seat and maybe make them stand up to allow you to pass while you are trying to hold on to your urges. Jump to 5/7 minutes later and as they are about to slip back into sleep ,repeat this in reverse. Wake up aisle , wake up middle....
 
My window seat days were clearly over! It was a time before airlines had decided to nickle and dime the flying public. I started booking front seats, right behind the first class cabin. Firstly it had better legroom that ensured that you would pass through without disturbing your co passengers. Secondly you would invariably get served food first and the washrooms were not too far either. These seats were also in the front section of the aircraft; which reportedly is smoother to ride during air turbulence. 
           
Now the definition of a bad luck seat had changed for me. Of course airlines do not assign these seats any more; they sell them. About $75 per leg of the journey. I usually buy some good luck now ! 
 
People in the know will tell you that the worst possible seat in a Boeing 787 dream liner happens to be seat 11 A. It is right next to an emergency exit, so you are not allowed to keep your handbags or other belongings with you. Floor needs to be clear of all obstructions. An AC duct apparently is also a restricting  element. Window  is not only not operable; it does not exist. Vishwaskumar Ramesh would have cursed his luck or maybe given an earful to his travel agent. He might have even tried to change to a different seat at the check in counter..... no matter. 11A was his seat and so it remained as he boarded his flight back home to UK. His flight crashed barely 5 minutes into take off. It killed everyone on board the aircraft as well as several others in a nearby  building on which the ill fated aircraft fell .
 
Not everyone actually! Not the occupier of 11A. In an absolute miracle, Vishwaskumar left the catastrophically burning   plane; with charred bodies and smoking debris all around him; on foot. Repeat on foot. He sustained minor injuries , minimal burns and is currently recovering in a city hospital.  The lone survivor of this tragedy!
 
We should never pause to strive for the best possible outcome in every endeavour.  However what we consider bad luck; might actually prove to be the best thing that  ever happened to us. We just do not know it yet.  Ask seat 11A! He will tell you.
 
 

Monday, June 9, 2025

Misplaced Loyalty!

Representative image,"Loyal Dog"


For the last 75% of my total elapsed life several matters of concern have raised their head from time to time. Just like everybody and their aunt's life! Some were dealt with rather expeditiously; some lost steam and disappeared on their own. Others required a little more focused effort on my part. Few- very few stayed on obdurately; paying no heed to my shenanigans. 

The hardest of them, ' Is everything fine ?', gnawed at me everyday; persistently pushing, needling and looming large on my mind and spirits. I played all the possible scenes in my mind. I switched different permutations and combinations of all  the possible answers. I shouted my query in the air regularly as life kept happening to me over all of these years.

'Is everything fine?';'Is everything fine?'

Of course there was no one there to answer back! As is my wont, I analyzed  everything minutely. Events that culminated in arriving at this situation where there is no answer. Only a question that begets more questions. I felt a little responsible. I rewrote all the scenes of my life in my head.I changed my actions to other possible actions. Things I could have done or should not have done at such and such point. Things I said; stuff I left unsaid. Everything was imagined over and over and over! Wasted a lot of time on this, but the question remained.

'Is everything fine?';'Is everything fine?'

I wished I was a bit more believable! Why was I not believed, again? What exactly is my fault? Why don't I deserve an answer? I looked everywhere without luck for the entity that held answers to all these. The ugly question just would not go away even after it defeated and diminished me! I loose, you win; just let go of me! I pleaded for years. My inner voice however kept up the din.

'Is everything fine?';'Is everything fine?'

Apparently sheer stupidity above a certain threshold has been banned in the heavens and seemingly I overshot by miles! Universe finally had to step in to save me from myself! It suddenly started putting nuggets of information on my desk. Information that had eluded me for years. As if I even knew what to look for in the first place.

It knocked me on the head; pushed me hard; cajoled me, shook me and bombarded me with curated scenes in the right sequence. Scenes that I had gone through before in my head but never connected. It provided corroborating clues; one after another. And from some deep dark depth it unearthed  the queen of the answers ! Peeling layer after layer, the universe put her under a spotlight.

The results were astounding! I was shocked to recognize what I should have known on day one! I was completely wrong about not being believed! I was believed totally. Every word of mine was believed, because it was true!

It just did not suit the new script being written with the new title," beliefs do not pay bills'! Script changes were premeditated and executed secretly in cold blood; one scene at a time. Words like Emotion, loyalty and commitment were erased.

Final project got released unannounced and unexplained. Totally without remorse; without regret and without a care except for monetary considerations. You could have heard the jangling  sounds in the background.

Universe sent me the theme song too:

Everything was master planned; a great design I'd say. 

It is more than fine. Shut the 'F' up and go far away!

You are no body to ask any questions anyway.

Simply a  blot on the larger canvas.

Just go home and write in golden letters;    

It was always fine and it is  getting better.  

You little blot - no longer of use to us !

Henry David Thoreau said, "The price of anything is the amount of life you exchange for it".

Money always costs too much. At times you need to exchange yourself entirely. In the end 'it is all about the money'!

Seriously we should test people for stupidity, ignorance, greed and love of power. In order to ensure that they do not harm others or themselves. Trust me I feel like I have arrived here from a different planet !

 'Whole program was painstakingly designed to be fine, you dolt!'

 How in the blazes did I miss the answer staring me in the face for so long? what a dunce!

                                 

 

 

 

 

  

Sunday, June 8, 2025

वादा, मेरा वादा!


'Samurai under Attack'
Antique Japanese Ukiyo-e woodcut print

नए नाम के नए रंग में बरसों बाद तुझे देखकर,

रूह तक के दुखते ज़ख्म बेदर्दी से खुरचे गए फिर।

डूबते दिल को भरोसा दिया इस सच ने सामने आकर,

अब भी वैसी की वैसी है तेरी, हिकारत भरी वो नजर।

जीवन भर के साथ का उधार बकाया है तुझपर,

तकाज़ा करने आया कभी कोई क्या तुम्हारे दर?

कर्ज वापिस हो कैसे,क्यों, क्या करोगी सोचकर,

तुम जियो जिंदगी गुलाबी, मखमली; बेफिक्र होकर।

मै हूँ,रख लूंगा सारी तल्खियां अपनी नाकामी में सहेज कर,

बता क्या करूं, ये वादा कर जो दिया था तुझपे ऐतबार कर!

तुम अपनी चुप से कहती चलो, 'मरदूद चुप कर',

ढीठ हूँ, हवाओं से तेरी लेता रहूंगा खोज खबर।

इस मूर्ख को समझाया था डूबता सौदा मत कर,

चलो दो, अगली बार के लिए कोरा कागज़ दस्तख़त कर।

एवज में समय के अंत तक मांगूंगा ,'प्रभु इसका भला कर',

या कि फिर वादा खिलाफी करोगी, अख्तियारों का पत्ता चल कर?

अपनी भली खबर भेजो, दो अक्षर हाल लिख डालो। ...बस मुक्तसर

मेरी वफ़ा है बस अक्स तेरा; इसी हिकमत से फिर तेरे साथ रहूंगा उम्र भर,

बता क्या करूं? ये वादा कर जो दिया था तुझ पर ऐतबार  कर!





Saturday, May 31, 2025

उससे कहना! USSAY KEHNA!

 

 

 "An old man talking" Etching by Salvatore Rosa

 उससे कहना!

घर के उसका मुझको पता है,

हर इक रास्ता नप रखा है। 

उस दुनिया से चल भी बसा हूं।

जाने क्या मै सोच रहा हूं।

मिले तो उससे लाज़िम कहना;

मै बस उसको  ढूंढ रहा हूं।

 

सख्त लफ्ज़ से दूर रहूंगा;

अपना हक पर लेके टलूंगा।

"खुश तो हो तुम"?,

ये सवाल पूछने सदियों से ,

मैं बस उसको ढूंढ रहा हूं।

मिले तो उससे लाज़िम कहना।

 

मेरी दुनिया तुम में थी बस;

वो ही दुनिया लूट लुटाकर,

कब्र पे मेरी ताज बनाकर 

सौदा सस्ता पड़ा कि महंगा?

और फ़ज़ूल की बात बनाने 

मैं बस उसको ढूंढ रहा हूं।

मिले तो उससे लाज़िम कहना। 

 

गली मुहल्ले, चौक के रस्ते,

हर दिन, हर पल जगते सोते;

हर इंसा में, हर पत्थर में; 

हर कांटे को हाथ चुभा कर; 

मै बस उसको ढूंढ रहा हूं।

मिले तो उससे लाज़िम कहना।

 

आदमी शरीफ़ है तो पुल से कूदे!

कन्या राशि का कमबख्त है;

कुछ पल रोया, निकल लिया फिर सब्जी लेने। 

बाकी का आके रो लेगा!

बहुत प्रैक्टिकल है अपना भाई;

अच्छा किया जो जान छुड़ाई। 

इस सब से सहमत होने को 

मैं बस उसको ढूंढ रहा हूं। 

मिले तो उससे लाज़िम कहना।

 

गम को लफ्जों में ढालो तो

जाम ए जहर इक बन जाएगा।

किसी शाम फिर बैठें सामने,

पीने पिलाने, इसी बहाने,

मैं बस उसको ढूंढ रहा हूं।

मिले तो उस से लाज़िम कहना।

 

पुनर्जन्म गप्प नही है सारी; 

बस पे चढ़ने न दूंगा इस बारी!

जनम लगें जितने लगने दो; 

थाली भर के, ठूंस के लूंगा!

हां दो ही निवाले नहीं चलेंगे! 

ऐसा ज़रा सा धमकाने को,

मैं बस उसको ढूंढ रहा हूं।

मिले तो उससे लाज़िम कहना।

 

बिसात है क्या दुश्मन की जो दे 

सच्चे दोस्त के बक्से में ही,

बस पहली दूजी  ही तह में;

दगा पड़ा खा मिलेगा! 

भूली कसमें होंगी, टूटा वादा दिखेगा । 

इत्ता ज़रा छिपाना कि

अपने फायदे का फलसफा सिखाने, 

मै बस उसको ढूंढ रहा हूं।

मिले तो उससे लाज़िम कहना।


आखिरी शब को, आखिरी लम्हे;

 कान लगा के गौर से सुनना।

जाते जाते यही कहूंगा;

मै बस उसको ढूंढ रहा हूँ!

उससे कहना! 

उससे कहना!

 






Friday, May 30, 2025

लाल फूल के पीछे! Lal phool ke peeche!

 

 

                                                   'Poppies'  by Vincent Van Gogh

सिर पटको वो कहीं नहीं है; जो दिख भी रही है।
सदियों हुए वो मर भी चुकी है; और दिख भी रही है।
 
फर्क है देखो नाम के हिज़्जे; जो दिख भी रही है।
सुनो अलग कबीले की है; जो दिख भी रही है।
 
लाल फूल के पीछे छिपी है; और दिख भी रही है।
कांटों से क्या खूब सजी है; जो दिख भी रही है।
 
पड़े हैं ताले दरवाजों पे, और दिख भी रही है।
खिड़की गुम है दीवारों की; और दिख भी रही है।
 
पर्ची, चिट्ठी नहीं न लेगी; जो दिख भी रही है।
फरियाद कोई नहीं सुनेगी; जो दिख भी रही है।
 
छिपन छिपाई खेल रही है; और दिख भी रही है।
धप्पा तुमको नहीं कहेगी; और दिख भी रही है।
 
यूं ही अकेली खड़ी रहेगी; जो दिख भी रही है।
तुमसे दूरी बना रखेगी; जो दिख भी रही है।
 
कबका विदा वो कह जो चुकी है; और दिख भी रही है।
कब्र में तुम जो दफन पड़े हो; और दिख भी रही है?
 
Roman script follows:- 
 
Sir patko vo kahin nahi hai; Jo dikh bhi rahi hai.
Sadiyon pehle mur bhi chuki hai; aur dikh bhi rahi hai.
 
Farak hai dekho naam ke hijje; Jo dikh bhi rahi hai.
Suno alag kabile ki hai; Jo dikh bhi rahi hai.
 
lalaphool ke picche chipeei hai; aur dikh bhi rahi hai.
kaanton se kya khoob saji hai;Jo dikh bhi rahi hai.
 
pade hain taale darwajon pe, aur dikh bhi rahi hai.
Khidki gum hai deewaron ki; aur dikh bhi rahi hai.
 
Parchi chiithi nahi n legi; Jo dikh bhi rahi hai.
Fariyad koi nahi sunegi; Jo dikh bhi rahi hai.
 
Chipan chupai khel rahi hai; aur dikh bhi rahi hai.
Dappa tumko nahi kahegi; aur dikh bhi rahi hai.
 
yoon he akeli khadi rahegi; Jo dikh bhi rahi hai.
Tumse doori bana rakhegi; Jo dikh bhi rahi hai.
 
Kabka vida vo keh jo chuki hai; aur dikh bhi rahi hai.
kabr tum jo dafan pade ho ; aur dikh bhi rahi hai?

 

 

 

Sunday, May 18, 2025

23 Minutes!

 
Wouldn't it be great if there was no need to have an army for a nation? It is not just a romantic, impractical notion. As a matter of fact a number of countries are already there! Samoa,Monaco, Iceland, Mauritius,Panama and a few other do not have armies. Although there are security arrangement for protection. Mostly with a bigger neighbouring nation with an army.
 
Distinction for the only army that has a country unarguably falls to Pakistan. This special arrangement means that this army actually does everything except protect the nation. It develops real estate and collects commissions on infrastructural works. It makes cement; bottles water; runs sugar mills and has interests in healthcare, insurance and financial sectors. Interestingly it also sells pizza! According to reports a three star general (now retired) owns hundreds of Papa John franchises worldwide. Army is the top most sought after 'no risk-fantastic rewards' career choice in Pakistan. Behind closed doors It is humorously  referred to as 'Al Fayda' (The profit) !
 
Pakistan's army has never lost an election and never won a war. Depending  on who you ask their most memorable battlefield moment is the largest surrender in the modern history after world war II. On 16th December 1971, over 93000 Pakistan troops meekly surrendered to the Indian army after  mere  14 day of fighting. They also lost half of their country in the process. Based on their statements just a few hours previous to that event, you would not have guessed their intent to raise the white flag. They maintained that they are winning on all fronts and enemy armies are running away. Public lapped up their fantastic fibs ! Soon after they actually laid their arms down instead. The thermonuclear shock of this colossal betrayal was so huge
that fifty years on it still  pulsates painfully through their national psyche.

To be fair, propaganda is a very common tool. Every entity deploys it to confuse and misdirect the adversary as well as advance their cause. This army however uses it to control the minds of its own domestic population. In the last 78 odd years that it has held power covertly or overtly, they have  succeeded in creating millions of indoctrinated, low intellect, radicalized Islamic zealots. Army directly shapes their thinking and directs their responses to events. In my personal experience of interacting with several different nationalities; Pakistan's society under their jihadist army has produced a higher percentage of  fundamentalist individuals than Iranians under mullahcracy or even Afghans under Taliban. This conclusion has surprised me too, but that is my first hand experience and now I believe every Pakistani is afflicted by this malady to some degree or the other. I would like to clarify here that I am not equating conservatism or religiosity to fundamentalism. Pakistan army has really done an unpardonable disservice to their nation in this regard .
 
They of course will never agree with my opinion. They do not report to anyone and no one dares to question their actions. This unfettered independence has given them a false sense of invincibility. They  actually believe in their own lies and unfortunately Pakistan's public has followed the Pied Piper of Pindi! They have always over reached beyond their capabilities and under estimated their opponents to the detriment of Pakistani nation. A total absence of a national identity has not helped any. They had to invent one and in one word it is called ' Not Indian'!  This sick obsession with India has informed everything they do and don't do. It has also led them into several lost wars, mostly with India. Although their  fighter pilots flying for  Arab armies against Israel  and their role in the Afghan war is well documented.
 
Right after partition of India on religious grounds, the newly carved Islamic Pakistan invaded India in order to annex Kashmir. They laid siege to Srinagar, but true to form  never expected India to airlift troops to the besieged Kashmir valley. In a swift operation India crushed the invasion. Pakistani raiders were soon running with their tail between their legs. Of course India made a strategic error in going to the toothless UN. They never completed the task of throwing Pakistan out of the entire region and this blunder has  shaped all the troubles since. India has repeatedly let go too soon,  and has not learned any lesson from history till date.
 
Pakistan tried again in 1965. Bubbling with confidence stemming from an infusion of the latest western arms and artillery  like Patton Tanks and Sabre jets.Bolstered by a misplaced belief in themselves as a superior martial race compared to a weak Hindu they launched operation Gibraltar. Plan was to begin at breakfast time and have high tea in Delhi's red fort! Overconfidence is a very mild word for it! They miscalculated big time  because India advanced on several fronts simultaneously rather than fight only in the Kashmir region. Forward units of the Indian army reached the outskirts of Lahore. All fight went out of Pakistan in 17 days and they had to sue for peace. Without batting an eyelid they marketed this campaign as a great win to their population although they do not have an inch of territory to show for it. Just Because Lahore did not get over run! You would be hard put to find a Pakistani who does not believe in this fable without questioning How Lahore got threatened in the first place.
 
Come 1971 Pakistan army  tried again and as we saw earlier had to surrender; losing the entire eastern Pakistan, now called Bangladesh. Pakistan's narrative however would have you believe that they would have won but for the treachery of the Bengali's. Cleverly shifting the onus of defeat and demonize their own non Punjabi population. They grossly oversold their own capabilities and papered over their abject ineptness. Very few dare to question this narrative in Pakistan; millions believe in it  !  

Afghan war and US creation of Taliban provided a golden opportunity for them to siphon billions of western dollars in the name of checking Soviet Russia. They however used this free money to fortify against India. When the war ended and Russia left Afghanistan; Pakistan's army announced that as their own win over a major super power. They created an larger than life aura of invincibility for themselves. As usual public was totally convinced but more importantly they themselves were convinced of their astounding greatness. Add to it their success in making a complete monkey out of USA by bilking mega dollars to hunt bin laden; while  he was living under their protection all that time;  few yards from their military compound in Abbotabad.
 
They made their move on Kashmir again in 1999. The Kargil war  was supposed to be a master class in military tactics. Occupy high positions and cut the Srinagar - Leh Highway! India was supposed to come to knees in quick time. They estimated that before the week is out Pakistan army generals would be playing a round at Royal Spring Golf Course in Srinagar, with waiters holding trays of tall drinks in the background!
 
Amazingly they never even considered the full spectrum of  retaliatory measures at India's disposal. India in fact deployed their Air Force; 155 mm long range heavy artillery and elite special forces trained for mountain warfare. Famed Pakistan army; slayer of the Soviet Russia and conqueror of the three realms had not planned for this! I am not even joking! Every single position Pakistan had was abandoned hastily or was lost with catastrophically heavy casualties. Entire Northern Light Infantry was virtually wiped out by the Indian assault. Their then prime minister Nawaz Sharif admitted to 4,000 deaths in this lost war. Real numbers are not known. Any half decent nation would be conducting a court martial at this point; Not Pakistan!
 
Pakistan needed an atom bomb against India and they managed to get it. 'How' is another story. This they thought would give them ascendancy in the battlefield and India would not dare - period! Pakistan army  successfully used the jihadist infrastructure left over from the Afghan war; radicalized their own society at every level; created layers upon layers of inter woven Islamic terrorist groups and pushed them across  to bleed India with a thousand cuts. Terrorism as a state policy went main stream. They nearly got away with it for a long time.
 
They perpetrated a little operation and India retaliated a little bit. Pakistan's costs were insignificant. A few expendable human cannon fodder, some of which were sourced from within India itself! Losses for India however kept mounting. Apart from physical human and material loss there was this hugely negative impact on the society that no government can continue to ignore. Pakistan's Terrorists hit Indian security personnel at Pulwama and 40 odd personnel perished in the attack. Resultant skirmishes had  India Bombing a single terrorist camp in Pakistan. Aerial battles occurred between two air forces.  An Indian MIG 21 was downed by a PAF  F16 and  Its Pilot captured by Pakistan. India threatened a missile strike. Right away Pakistan blinked & let go of the pilot. That event had lessons for both the nations. India started upgrading its defensive and offensive capabilities. 4.5 generation fighters, S400 air defence systems, new missiles; drones etc.were inducted into service in a very short period but clearly Indian thought process changed. Pakistan too got new equipment mostly from china but more importantly decided to double down on terrorism as its state policy. It was only a matter of time before they would over reach and underestimate the enemy again.
 
True to form they over played their hand and orchestrated a wanton killing of civilian holiday makers in a picturesque tourist spot in Pahalgam, India in April 2025. They shot dead 26 innocent lives by selectively targeting  non Muslim tourists. Husband of a honeymooning couple among them. That one picture of the distraught young wife crying over the dead body of her week old husband put the usually flaccid Indian responses on steroids. Pakistan's army could never gauge the tornado that was about to hit them. After all they had a bomb that India needed to be afraid of. It was a patently poor read of the enemy mind as usual by the Pakistan's Army.
 
First time in 78 years in may 2025 India  initiated a sizable strike after prepping for about two weeks post Pakistan's terrorist act. 23 minutes is all it took for Pakistan army to fold this time. Although it manifested fully in about 4 days. Indian electronic warfare successfully jammed Pakistan air defences in those 23 minutes and then proceeded to rain missiles, drones and other unspecified munition to destroy several terrorist sites deep inside Pakistan. Pakistan army had a choice to stay out of this but they did not since these very terrorists are their own proxies. They mounted a retaliatory 400 drone swarm attack on India; which reports suggest were donated and  operated by Turkish operators.  Although the raid was aided by the Chinese satellite feed; it proved quite ineffective and Indian air defences made light work of thwarting these drones with minimal impact on ground. India in turn fired Brahmos missiles on a dozen Pakistan air bases and inflicted serious damage. Pakistan's forces could not stop a single missile attack; even Indian drones were a handful for their air defence. Independent Satellite imagery bears this out.
 
Pakistan's own missile attacks on the Indian targets were all intercepted and destroyed midair by a superior Indian air defence. Pakistan army watched helplessly as they had not planned for this kind of hit back by India! So what's new?
 
Of course Their army needs to show a victory to their population. Initially they claimed they have hit back at Indian air bases - immediately proven false. Then they claimed a missile attack on Delhi - intercepted and destroyed hundreds of miles from target. The star of their claim is  downing of 5 Indian fighter jets including Rafael aircraft. This number swiftly got updated to 6 and then to 6+1. Do not ask them for any proof please! The proof as their defence minister told the world is on social media! Look it up yourself! Pakistan is a  bad joke!
 
This story initially got some purchase worldwide as it was released by Reuters. Written by two part time pretend journos Saeed Shah and Idris Ali quoting an unnamed American official. You got it , they are Pakistanis!
This story was vigorously pushed online and amplified by Pakistan and Chinese handles to serve their own ends. One needs to fool their public and other needs to sell their first copy arms.
There is no proof as of now. Indian Air Force has confirmed that all of their pilots are home safe. In a democracy they can not lie about it unlike Pakistan. If they say no pilot is harmed then no pilot is harmed. Some Chinese PL 15 BVR missiles that Pakistan claims to have used to hit Indian aircraft were found destroyed on ground by India . At least one is nearly intact. Apparently this poor thing works once in a while!
 
The story maybe true , maybe not but Pakistan has not found any debris of the planes or any pilot, dead or alive. No Rafael debris was found in India either. An external fuel tank debris was found in Srinagar which most defence experts agree matches a Mirage. It is not an aircraft and definitely not a Rafael. More and more independent experts now believe that this story by Pakistan's army is highly exaggerated, if not  entirely a figment of their feverish mind.

Seems India had sent in, ahead of their main attack on Pakistan, few advanced  decoy drones that had electronic signatures of a front line fighter.
Pakistan's Chinese made J10 actually engaged, taking them for the real thing and fired their beyond visual range PL15E  missiles from as far away as they could. Chinese military commentators estimate that PL15 E flopped mostly because Pakistan's pilots, scared to go closer fired at D-Max. That's from 145 km away. Few reached the target; others got their navigation jammed by Indian Electronic Warfare  Measures and fell to ground - spent. Some others got intercepted and shot by Indian Air Defence. Few Drones got hit and went down after revealing Pakistan air defence locations to the Indian Air Force. This was the purpose of sending them on anyway. A thoroughly fooled Pakistan started claiming 5 successful hits on Indian Fighters - aircraft that were never there to be hit in the first place.

 Truth as they say is the first casualty of war. This story also might be true or not. However it does explain Pakistan's bogus claims; lack of any aircraft debris either in Pakistan or India  and the strange case of vanishing pilots. There are unconfirmed reports of one Indian Rafael damaged with no harm to the  Pilot. The cause  will be known in time.There is however nothing to gloat for Pakistan even in case of  India loosing a few machines in action. It is an inconsequential fig leaf to hide Pakistan Army's major miscalculation in launching a terrorist strike inside India. A strike that has resulted in  a massive blow back on Pakistan. Thanks to their army Pakistan has jeopardized their long term access to water since India has suspended Indus Water treaty. For an agrarian nation like Pakistan that is literally  the last nail in the coffin. They have also lost hundred's of lives and billions in damages to property and infrastructure.  They have earned another black spot on  their reputation as insincere partners against terrorism. They of course do not care about their reputation a lot. Their image as the International begging bowl that needs a loan to pay interest on a previous loan is unenviable! Only silver lining is as on the date of writing a truce has been called in this war and it is holding!

If their army is not treacherous, I do not know what is ?  Some of the most liked people on my list happen to be from Pakistan; but that will be day when Pakistan's citizens realize that their greatest enemy is in-house - their own army ! An army that is totally power hungry and has radicalized the society to serve their own political and pecuniary goals. Army that has lied blatantly to its own country men for 78 years and is not accountable for all the muck it is dragging the nation through. It is the main reason democracy never took roots in Pakistan. It is reckless, plans poorly and executes shoddily. Historically its only  limited success has been against their own - Bloch,Bengali, Pathan  and those makers of Pakistan - the Mohajir. 
 
Their nuclear bluff has gotten called. Their elite strike corps did not leave barracks. Their top guns never  dared to fly across; their  missiles  got blown up before reaching target; their drones got  toyed with; their navy kept cowering for safety in the harbour and their generals were hiding in deep bunkers. All this while India was raining missiles and bombing at will; wherever it wanted.  But of course Pakistan Army has won; like it wins every time! Give them some medals!
 
23 minutes is what it took this time round to uncloak them. Next time...... Let us hope and pray that there is no next time! Next Time time might  contract to a few seconds and there wont be any coming back from it!